Hot Bitch

I feel like shit. Don't know why. Kinda sweaty and can't get comfortable.
We're 34 weeks in the morning.
Being pregnant with twins at this stage sucks.
I'm so over it.
How much longer?
Anyone care to take a guess?

We had our 34 week ultrasound today.
Everything good. Heartrates, amount of fluid surrounding babies,etc.
They seem quite happy in there.
Girl weighing approximately 5lbs1oz.
Boy is approximately 4lbs9oz.
I'm carring almost 10lbs of baby and the end feels no where in sight.

Probably because of this. (adaptation from an email I sent)
It's kinda rambly, read slowly to understand my stream of conciousness.

I am 33 weeks and 3 days today.
I am feeling every one of those weeks. It just started this past week, my hips are going out of place if I sit on something firm for too long and try to get up, my heartburn is ferocious, I can't breathe, I have contractions if I try to walk any stores, I have a mild headache every day, I'm getting to the point of being d_o_n_e.

Our OB said that if I make it to 38 weeks he would do an amnio to check for lung maturity (which we know they would be, come on) but that's policy he says, and then he will section me.
As of last week neither baby was head down still ( A -Breech, B Transverse, sometimes Vertex) so we just all decided to go ahead and schedule an elective c-section.( well, it wont be considered elective if they dont end up turning- I would be needing one)

So get this. My actual due date is Oct 12th. When my OB's office called me to tell me the c-section scheduled date, it is OCTOBER 9TH. Yeah, like I'm going to go all the way to my due date with twins.
So basically I am going to have to go into labor on my own, and then get fitted in the OR . THAT pisses me off. Most everyone I know that is carrying twins has a c-section (if that's what they're having) scheduled for 37-38 weeks.
And it gets worse.
Carly had agreed with the OB and I, that we would do a lung maturity amnio after 37 weeks, by 38 if I hadn't gone into labor, and do the section right? Well, she called me the next day and said "Please don't be mad, but Ben and I talked and we feel it's too RISKY to do the amnio. I'm sorry but we just want to let nature take its course and if you go longer than 38 weeks... then you do."

What the hell. I SOMEWHAT see her point, I get that she's nervous about everything concerning pregnancy BUT- I am carrying these babies here. 38 weeks with twins is FULL TERM. Why don't "I" have any say in this? Totally not fair to me. I feel that I have done so much bending this entire pregnancy. There's NO reason I need to go past 38 weeks. That gives me a finish line, and she's being unreasonable as far as I'm concerned.
The other thing she said about the "risky" thing? She's scared that they're going to damage the babies. How? By accidentally picking them with a needle? Or the amnio will "put me into pre-mature labor"a she says.
IT'S NOT pre-mature labor at 38 weeks! So what if the babies decide to come because the bag didn't seal back up! This isn't an 18 week amnio testing, where if the membranes ruptured after amnio you would be f-cked.

Ok, just pray for me that I go into labor at 36-38 weeks on my own. Since the hospital didn't schedule me till 39weeks 4days, and Carly won't let the Dr. do an amnio like he wanted to at 37/38weeks, so IF my body decides to hold out, I am going to be one uncomfortable, not being able to do anything but cry bitch, and honestly, the shit may just hit the fan.